So I’ve been spending the past few months reconnecting to my spiritual roots; aka practicing Wicca as an everyday aspect of life. For a while spirituality had taken a back seat to everyday life; you know how it goes. Sometimes life gives you just enough time and energy to deal with work and other mundane stuff before you pass out for the night. I’ve been lucky enough to find an amazing friend to work with ( that’s you Yetti Ferrell); it’s a completely different experience from working alone. If you haven’t ever worked magick with another person then the only way I can describe it to you would be to say that it is one of the most intense and eye opening thing to have happened to me. Granted, not every group will have the same dynamic or strength behind it, but Yetti and I mesh perfectly in circle.
The second thing that I have discovered is wolf side of myself. I’ve always had an affinity for wolves, even have the paw print tattoo. Wolf has always been with me as a totem. But beyond the totemic aspect of wolf, there was something deeper. I recall times of feeling my ears press back against my head when surprised, or the feeling of hair on the back of my neck(fur really) standing on end when angered. I never knew what it was, after all it’s not like I actually have ears that move and such. Then a curious thing happened.
Ok so flashback a few months ago. I was bored online and looking to chat to pass the time. So I saw this guys profile and pic and noticed he had a triskele medallion on in his picture; so I messages him. Sure enough, he was a witch as well. After talking for a few weeks I mentioned wolf as my totem and asked if it was his as well; which it was. I think we both knew it in some way, as like attracts like. So we met for coffee at a local mall a little after that. I was amazed home much I felt safe and connected to this person I had only known for a short time online. We met up again the next week and decided to try a little experiment in energy work. Holy hell if the flood gates didn’t open up. I never really shared/worked with another person dealing in magick and energy before; it was like coming out of a deep sleep and seeing everything with new eyes.
So just bear with me as we jump ahead a few weeks. We were working with energies out in the woods, it was nighttime but brilliantly bright with a full moon. I had been asking Yetti about helping me connect more strongly to Wolf. Through guided meditation I saw my wolf, I learned its name, and I found that the wolf isn’t something separate from me; it is me. I can’t explain the mechanics of it, but I know it in my soul. Yetti calls it the wild blood. He has known about himself for a long while. He said he wasn’t sure if I was like him or not but he hoped I was. Like coming out the darkness into a bright day; everything from that moment is different than it was. I’m more confident and forceful, more connected to everything.
I know most people that read this are going to automatically think “role play” or “psycho” or some other term because this concept is outside of their everyday thinking. But it is real. Before all this I had family and friends and loves. Now, with Yetti, I have pack. What’s pack? Think family but by choice. Think friend but on a level so deep you can feel the other person and their innermost self. Think loyalty, protection, and safety.
So I think I might want to expand on this post, kinda make it a….I don’t know. Maybe other people will read this and recognize something similar in themselves.